Dawn Loves Buttercups

Is it possible – to feel happiness and sadness at the same time? I would argue yes, providing it is regarding a situation or event rather than a permanent state of mind. If it relates to a permanent swing between highs and lows in temperament, huge mood swings, then I would urge anyone experiencing this type of drastic change to seek professional help immediately.

Here I am talking about an event or situation that is happening around you and your reaction to it. For myself I find I am coming to the end of a very long chapter in my life where I have come to realise I have accepted second best, never bringing my needs into the equation. Since childhood spending my time ,”serving” others needs always before or at detriment to my own personal cost. I have never once lived on my own to test myself and to discover my capacity to grow more spiritually. To do this now is important to me, but it means making big decisions that I know will hurt others and have a knock on effect, but I know I deserve to give myself this journey before it is too late to do it. And that makes me sad.

Equally the prospect of discovery, about me, about special people in my life and about my world and spiritual growth makes me very happy. The anticipation of moving forward with this and expressing myself in a way I have never done before is both exciting if a little daunting.

I have always enjoyed travel and been really happy to travel alone to Australia, Singapore, China, Hong Kong and with others to Argentina, Peru, France and Spain, so that will never be a problem as long as I am strong and healthy.

I know what I must leave behind, but what am I travelling to? To me, is my joyful answer. I have both my inner child and my wise parent to listen to as well as the advice from my very dear friend, all of which reassures me it is the right and only decision to make. However practicalities and timing must be brought into play to make this work and that is of course the daunting task ahead. And so my affirmations are:-

I learn to accept love, support and at the same time freedom, as I begin the process of balancing happiness, sadness and joyful Anticipation is my thought from today onwards

I love me and I deserve to come into my own time, one step at a time with the love and support I know I have.

I am a beautiful being of love and deserve to receive love as well as give it freely

I enter the next phase of my life with such joyful Anticipation but without Expectation, without limits or restrictions embracing myself as the true spiritual being I am and open to become.

My heart chakra is open to receive love and blessings yet it is protected as Source guides me gently forward

I am open to learn about myself and my capacity to give and be open to receive.

I humbly accept the need to forgive and let go of everything that no longer serves me or brings me joy.

I AM READY 14/09/2021