Dawn Loves Buttercups

The few followers I do have may well have noticed that it has been a long time since I had been inspired to write anything at all. Yet, I continued to be very vociferous on Facebook (although mostly reposting memes that resonated with me ). However, the deeply personal feelings have been kept inside and probably only shared verbally and on screen with one person, my very dear friend who lives overseas. I have not even looked at the novel I started nor have I wanted to because it contains some of my deepest feelings and I do not feel I can write happy endings right now.

Lots of things happen every moment, small things we don’t even notice or realise are relevant, larger things that make us pause and take a deep breath and of course they contain elements that can make us happy or sad, active or inactive. So therefore I chose to be mostly silent whilst I processed all the changes taking place that affected me so deeply. I try so very hard to walk my talk even on days when blockages appear everywhere, and I know that my state of mind rests solely with me and no one else. My happiness is my business and only I can decide what and who affects that on a day to day basis. Another way of saying “live in the moment”, I guess.

Writers’ blocks are self created for a number of reasons, and for me it was (and probably still is) because of the huge changes I made to my life over the last 18 months and I really did not give myself time to assimulate everything. Getting things down on (virtual) paper is cathartic, but only when you really understand what it is you are going through, then and only then can the written word bring more clarity to the situation.

I know that I can often be ruled by my emotions and have always worn my heart on both sleeves. I also know that other Gemini part of my character is the practical capable person who once they make a decision want to move on, get it done and see the result working in my life and so often these two sides to my personality come up against each other most especially when I am manifesting. My very dear friend gave me a wonderful template to use for each individual thought on that which I wished to bring closer into my life and I have to say that for the most part it really works!
Where I now live, my car, finding new friends, travel etc. However, (my friend showed me how not to use the word “but” as that tells you to ignore everything you had said before) when it comes to finance and career prospects I have been less than helpful to Source. It’s not that I see myself as not worthy, but rather that I have a fixed pension income that will only change with inflation and I am certainly “retired” when it comes to thinking about a career.

Now this is the amazing bit! On Wednesday I went to a sort of photoshoot/pamper day and not only was it a lot of fun, but it has resulted in an offer to see if TV/Extra and fashion modelling work would be something in which I would be interested! It is at the early stage of discussion, but if it takes off, there would possibly be an extra source of income and having some fun at the same time.

At the same time I have started art classes and found myself deeply interested in architecture relating to styles of homes at the Victorian/Edwardian centuries right up to the present day both in the UK and USA. Art in all its forms is falling into my online media spaces (yes I know algorithms will do this) yet nevertheless I have clearly been calling this forward because I have been manifesting my ideal home this place where I live being my sanctuary for the time being.

Added to this I have for the last nine months or so begun to see auras in colour instead of just the outline of energy surrounding someone. This has been most strong when I talk to my friend on line and his aura has been changing and shifting so much. The colours are there and so are orbs and peaks and troughs! So now on top of art and painting here is something else that I know I must develop and learn more about.

NowI need to say, that although I am deeply spiritual in my outlook, I have always remained a very practical down to earth and grounded woman who always inspects deeply every aspect of a new venture before committing to it. This time my gut instinct tells me to just accept these new gifts coming into my life and to develop them as much as I can.

So this is my challenge to myself, to develop and shift to a higher level of consciousness, whilst remembering if I want to continue to travel and do all the things on my bucket list, I need to find a way to fund it and that is the practical side I must also pursue. Boy, is that a challenge to accept that Source is really sending me in the direction of commercial modelling at the age of almost 74! It is my key to unblocking my writing and getting back on track and I am sure I will have much more to say on this subject and everything else from now on. I may even get back to writing my novel, even if it teeters on having a HAE or not!

As ever, comments always welcome (as is advice) +caveat – be gentle with me please