Dawn Loves Buttercups

After learning so much from you regarding aspects of self, I have realised over the past year there’s more than one me who shares my  human body and more especially my mind and emotions.  These are three I have come to know well and understand more each day.  I am sure more exist and I have yet to identify My experience with them.

First, there’s the Me that loves you deeply, that hurts and yet is happy when you are happy.  I don’t visit with Her very often these days because I have now learnt how to detach from this Me and all that She has to tell Me.  This Me wears a mask when necessary,  because she needs to.  She is not dishonest, far from it, but the mask is necessary to protect her nevertheless. For this Me must love you from a distance and in silence.  This Me is sensual and longs for intimacy still .  Worry not,  this Me knows the score, She obeys the rules yet  finds no other to match you,  not mentally, intellectually  or spiritually and that is the sadness that weighs upon Her, so I just can’t visit her that often.  Yet the plus of it is when I do visit,  it is also this Me that loves your daughter and her husband, and the biggest plus of course is those beautiful amazing little people, your grandchildren.  I am so grateful for that and the place they now hold in My life.

Then there’s the Me that now  experiences daily life and enjoys  every moment of Her existence here on planet earth.  She gives gratitude every day and does Her very best to support the Me who sits by herself loving you in loneliness.  This second Me loves you differently, detached and  unconditionally.  You are Her dearest friend and She believes in you always.  This second Me treads the earth aware of Her gifts and the role She has to play here on earth.  She understands the Karmic account must be balanced as She finds her way back home to Source.  She knows that the next life however it pans out is the next adventure.  This Me adores animals, birds,  children and nature and always accepts every opportunity to speak to people from all over, learning about them, exchanging views and laughing at the jokes life plays on us.  This Me wants to continue learning and exploring, travelling and having fun.  This Me understands the opportunities, synchronicities and even absurdities that cross our paths daily and then still manages to give thanks at the end of each day.  If I don’t say it out loud, I know that my soul does it for Me as I sleep.

And now, I am just beginning to get to know the other remote and detached Me.  The Me that astral travels at night, helping where I can.  This is the Me that sees auras in people, the Me that hears Spirit’s voice, some days clearer than others.  The Me that has begun to explore these gifts that sit alongside, Reiki and healing, reflexology and My other hands on work.  This Me detaches from everyone and everything else so I can test, trust and ask questions, waiting in the silence for a response.  Sometimes the answer is clear and others it’s just words that make no sense at all.

This Me has learnt not to interpret, only pass on what She sees and hears without judgement or interference. This Me is tranquil, empathetic and grateful for the gifts as they grow daily.

And so it is that I have learnt what complexities we chose to accompany us in our life path as spiritual beings here on earth.  Through you, I have learnt the many sides of our personalities that talk to each other as if around a board management team.  You gave that team a name for you and I have understood from the very first time you told me, it made absolute sense. You have added to Me in a way no one else has ever done and I am so grateful for the opportunity to grow having learnt so much from you.

Namaste, always my very dear friend