Dawn Loves Buttercups

And this is where I start to realise things are getting real

Ever since I started this blog, I have been dealing with a domestic situation which I knew was going to get worse before it became better. It is always so difficult to make changes in your own life when you know that in doing so you will be hurting someone who has refused to see problems exist. My own happiness and my wellness and wellbeing as well as my spiritual balance needs this change.

So after 37 years of marriage, by the time this month closes or maybe earlier, I will be moving out of the apartment building where I currently live with my husband and begin life as a single woman. It’s too personal to blog reasons why and also I have to say that it’s the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, but I know it’s the right thing to do. However, I did not ever think I would have the courage to do this and the task weighs heavily on my shoulders.

I have been supported by many friends, but none more so than someone who came into my life’s pathway only a few months ago. This very wise, dear friend has given his time and advice with kindness and love even though he is thousands of miles away and has his own life to deal with including the grief of the loss of his wife last year. How selfless can someone be in the midst of their own sadness – that my friends is true supportive friendship. This morning I spent a few minutes just sitting quietly with him during our recent video chat feeling the peace and strength just flowing between us. I have no words in English to describe that moment nor the lasting sense of purpose that remains with me.

How can you describe such a gift? It’s not tangible and yet I swear I could touch the unconditional love that flowed towards me. This is something so pure. It has nothing to do with romantic love, this is something that totally envelopes you in a sacred space of peace and calm. Would that we could all share this with each other daily.

What a different world we could create, what peace between people could be achieved. My story has not finished, it is just beginning the last chapter. The one that I hope and trust will be my happiest. I don’t know what lies in my new pathway, but I do trust in the Universe to show me the way for my highest good and that includes all those concerned in the energy that is shifting around me right now. I have been shown how to trust again, how to create my ideal scenario boards to manifest and work towards my goals.

Right now I could write reams on how I feel, my gratitude and the wonder of this shift. Now is not the time, but maybe I will be able to write more on this. But for now, yes indeed, a special friend and I am so lucky to have someone like that in my corner. So, once again, thank you, thank you, thank you.