Tag: Let Go
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THE OCEAN AND I AM BUT A DROP WITHIN
I feel the sand between my toes damp, cold, gritty and sharp as I walk towards the foam lying upon the sand. The waves mesmerising me, calling me forth to take one step and then another. Cold and afraid I walk towards my destiny. I am alone knowing that I am drawn to them just…
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BEING PROUD WITHOUT EGO
What are you most proud of in your life? I think this has to come in two parts. When my middle sister was diagnosed with metatised breast cancer and having already lost my eldest sister and her eldest daughter (my niece) to cancer, I felt helpless watching my only other sibling coming to the end…
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LEAVING
What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself? By far it was finally getting up the courage to leave a marriage that I had invested 37 years of my life never admitting to myself that I was married to a controlling man who had narcissistic tendencies and that I had allowed it to…
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SILENCE
Whoever it was that first uttered the words “Silence is Golden”, got it totally wrong! Silence is noisy, especially when heard through the heart Silence is like a set of saucepans crashing somewhere in the dark Silence speaks volumes As it shouts across the sea I never thought to hear it Especially with you and…
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Midnight musings
Let me open my mind so you see it bare And I will show you naked honesty, if I can, if I dare Let me open my heart and watch every pulse And I’ll show you Love This life is unreal and so very false Let me open my arms knowing you cannot step in…
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THE SADNESS IS UPON ME
My name was not chosen for me. Both my sisters (who both sadly died far too young) were going to have my name as my mother liked it so much. She was persuaded to choose other names. These sisters were 10 and 15 years older than me, and as a surprise pregnancy just after the…
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Tranquility
Throughout most of today I experienced a beautiful sense of tranquility, thanks to the calming gentle presence of a dearly loved friend and some exquisite music. I was dealing with some difficult personal matters, which thanks to the empathy that always comes from my friend I was able to share my sadness and allow it…
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MY DEFENCE MECHANISM IS SELF DESTRUCTIVE
A recent group family outing photograph, allowed me to see the health damage I have been inflicting upon myself. Allowing winter weight to pile on the pounds is my familiar “go to” defence mechanism whenever I am struggling emotionally. It’s a pattern deliberately (whether consciously or subconsciously) I see myself absorbing when faced with emotions…
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CONFUSION
Confusion rains down upon me as I look at the mixed messages passing before my eyes. Words tumble around me as I try to make sense of the feelings they evoke in me. Every time I try to move on, I know it’s the wrong path as I tiptoe with just one foot in the…
Dawn Loves Buttercups 