Tag: Self doubt
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THE OCEAN AND I AM BUT A DROP WITHIN
I feel the sand between my toes damp, cold, gritty and sharp as I walk towards the foam lying upon the sand. The waves mesmerising me, calling me forth to take one step and then another. Cold and afraid I walk towards my destiny. I am alone knowing that I am drawn to them just…
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MY THREE WISHES
You have three magic genie wishes, what are you asking for? Without the one, the other two won’t come to pass so it’s something I will keep to myself. Travel and distance means separation is inevitable. So I live in the moment, keeping those wishes in my heart holding them in a sacred space that…
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LEAVING
What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself? By far it was finally getting up the courage to leave a marriage that I had invested 37 years of my life never admitting to myself that I was married to a controlling man who had narcissistic tendencies and that I had allowed it to…
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IMPOSTER SYNDROME
Tell us about a time when you felt out of place. Back in 2017, unbeknownst to me, I had been nominated by several people to be a candidate for The Association of Reflexologists “unsung hero” award for my work as a charity founder bringing the NHS closer to working with holistic therapy for cancer and…
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DAYS WHEN I CRY A LITTLE MORE THAN I SHOULD
It doesn’t happen often, yet there comes a time when the sadness is upon me, worse because I have no one to turn to. Priorities change and sweet moments will disappear, passing into weeks in between and, knowing that I can do nothing about it is probably the most difficult thing of all. It’s not…
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THE SADNESS IS UPON ME
My name was not chosen for me. Both my sisters (who both sadly died far too young) were going to have my name as my mother liked it so much. She was persuaded to choose other names. These sisters were 10 and 15 years older than me, and as a surprise pregnancy just after the…
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MY DEFENCE MECHANISM IS SELF DESTRUCTIVE
A recent group family outing photograph, allowed me to see the health damage I have been inflicting upon myself. Allowing winter weight to pile on the pounds is my familiar “go to” defence mechanism whenever I am struggling emotionally. It’s a pattern deliberately (whether consciously or subconsciously) I see myself absorbing when faced with emotions…
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CONFUSION
Confusion rains down upon me as I look at the mixed messages passing before my eyes. Words tumble around me as I try to make sense of the feelings they evoke in me. Every time I try to move on, I know it’s the wrong path as I tiptoe with just one foot in the…
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My Hero
He has no idea, with his talk of pedestals and falling off, how he has changed my life He has shown me how to love life once more and led me back to my spiritual core He guides and supports me as I entered unchartered waters time and again His wisdom and advice so freely…
Dawn Loves Buttercups 